Lose Out

I never did something embarrassing in the public ( i think i was)...i was taking monorail to Times Square and i already guessed that there's gonna be a lot of ppl, means tough to get down from the train. So i braced myself when it reached my destination, rose from my seat, a Negro lady accidentally step on my foot (i forgive, but wasnt feeling happy already), then ppl who stands near the door wouldnt budge...so i cant seems to squeeze my way through!!

i was thinking to say ' excuse me' and i shouted loudly...instead of my normal tone!! i was suprised of my own tone! haha....then ppl still wouldnt go out from the train,instead inched every further into the train,causing me to be trapped inside!!

pissed off....i was cursing already!!! but...the funny thing was...my curses came in half way only..example..'shii.....' instead of 'shit' in full word....i guessed i nvr cursed in front of anyone b4!! so i was pretty embarrass bout the situation!! haha....i prayed ppl dont recognize me!!

Prosperity Mindset!

It's hard!! easy to say than done but i'm trying~
we must change our mindset, clear all the 'viruses' and never settle for enough! when u settle for enough, your prosperity ends there...I DO NOT WANT that!
"When change is necessary, not changing is destructive" <--not the exact words, but the meaning is there!! i WANT TO PROSPER~

ADMIT IT!

well, i dont admit my mistakes...yes,right!! i mean i do admit it when i know i'm wrong (sometimes) but if i never admit i'm wrong, how can i admit it's my mistake,right?!! so how am i gonna admit that?? this is going to be a confuse!

here goes, most people do not admit it's their fault when things turn bad. it's in our human nature. sometimes, it's hard to admit that it's your fault because of pride!! how much does pride cost?

as for me, i never want to admit that i'm wrong and i always give it a fight b4 i finally say, 'ok,my fault!' admitting is one thing, apologizing is another!! i found it hard to apologize to someone too, not those kind where i step onto someone's toe and say sorry.

"sorry seems the hardest word" is a song title by a band (i dont remember who) which is true!! when u know u have done something wrong, so it's right to apologize, but when u open your mouth to say 'sorry',it seems you lost your voice. sometimes i feel like that! so i'm learning to admit my mistakes and learn how to say 'sorry'!

so ppl out there, saying 'sorry' is not difficult, the difficult part is saying it sincerely rather than just let the word slip out without meaning to it!

Weekend is here

but i'm not happy at all...coz i'm having class from sat till mon!!! full day, same like working hours~
i'm so drained out this week and i dont know what's the reason of it!! exam is here and i haven't start studying yet (last min is my style) which i really need to change my habit or way of studying!!

nervous, and feeling scared start to seep into my bones!! worry big time and i know i shouldnt be worry if i have done my share of studying!!

Mon and Tues, pass by just like that! Wed night went for Triumph Fair and i'm so tired after that! it's jam packed with ppl and i realize, every tom-dick-and-harry owns a camera,SLR or digital! everyone into photography now?*shake head* tough competition out there and i know my dearest will strive for success!

Thurs was cell group time and played a game,which is very exercising, causing my leg muscle very painful right now!!! means i need more exercise, dear said so and i also think so!

Today, finally, salary release and i treat myself to enjoy good food (which is once a mth)! it's also Isetan, KLCC pre-sale for members only! bought working shirt and a watch for my daddy as father's day gift! i budgeted and it was within budget, i wanted to get him a watch very long ago and now i finally did it...i hope he'll be happy to have it!

have to sleep early now, this weekend gonna be a long and tiring one!! God,give me the knowledge and strength, amen!

Missing out

Suddenly, i feel like i hav been missing out my best friend wedding plans!! i wanted so much to share her happiness as well as helping her out for her plans. But i'm so far away,telephone calls seem weird for us (it's been long since we talk on the phone, like we used to talk during high school!) haha...funny...

i guess i just miss my buddy! how i wish we could share ideas and laugh bout it together! growing up is part of a process in life...but i know we can maintain our friendship~mayb i just feel left out in the cold, wanting to know what she want or how she plan to have it..

if only i'm at kk, then everythin would be perfect...but i'm not, i know i missed out some,but we'll catch up soon!! miss my best bud~

Savings

I just realized, that i have been working 3 months in PBB. These 3 mths seems like a yr for me. i'm content and happy working here, mayb bcoz the pay is good!! main reason to be happy bout~

i have learned how to spend wisely and control my spending spree (did not simply buy what i like, just buy what i need). sometimes, i feel like buying stuff just to reward myself, but when i really want to pay for it, then i think it's better to go into my savings! hurray~~

it's really hard not to spend of luxury goods and always tempted, but luckily, my mind always consciously remind me that i dont need it! one thing i never will change is that, i'll buy good and healthy (means costly) food!! it's good to maintain healthy habits...

By this year end, i'm gonna achieve what i have in my mind! YES!

A Day Out

A very tiring day! It's Mother's Day today and i missed my mother greatly~ i LOVE u , mum!!

Went for Jill and Yipp's baby girl, Alethea full moon at Holiday Villa Hotel! we had great buffet lunch, very full. Went to S.Wang to buy Gary's concert ticket!!! YES~~i finally going to a concert after staying kl for 3 years!! haha...had to queue 2 hours to buy this!! it's the 2nd expensive ticket, cost MR238!! but never regret bout it~excited!

it's been a fulfilling day~ i walked so much till my feet hurt~hopefully it wont cramp again like last thurs! i'm used my day so fully that i'm extraordinary tired! so i'm going off to bed early~

Sudden Excitement

I realize, everyone of my friends is planning for marriage! HAHA...andy and i been talking bout it and we decide, it'll be 2 yrs from now. the reason, bcoz we need to save up for the wedding! it's not easy to plan and it's involving financial matters, which both of us are not financially stable right now. it's been 3 yrs of working life, and we didnt really saved up much!

My mum said, i can use up the money which i put in an account, but i do wish to touch that money and it'll only be use when there is EMERGENCY! besides, it pays real good interest! just take it as an investment!

Suddenly, in the "marry mood" , i also wish to get marry but when i think bout getting marry, well, it's not the TIME yet! also, everyone around me is pregnant and my friends are really blessed bout it. i feel happy for them as well~i do hope i have a healthy body to carry a baby in the future!

i realize to save money need alot of sacrifice! i have to shop less, which i have been practising ever since i been jobless for 2 mths. it feels good to save up too, but everything is increasing and never decrease. Food, transport and daily necessity! How am i going to save more? Now, we're trying to cut down entertainment, eat less outside food and buy less unnecessary stuff!

Nevertheless, something always come up when i try to save up more money. My best bud announcing her big day (i'm gonna spend more but i am willing and feel good bout spending it on her), full moon babieS ( not just one this yr), friendS getting marry (bout 6 of them), i need to get a laptop (current one, darn slow but still manage, so gonna change it when it's not functioning anymore), and i cant think of anymore, bcoz it'll just scare me!! i guess 2008 is the year of prosperity for both of us bcoz we afford to give out more than last year! BLess me and Andy for it!

My Fruitful Weekend

It's my 1st time going to church for 3 consecutive days! It's really tiring but Ps.Kong sermons are just great! What i remember the most is shame and fear. We must let go of our shame to move on with our life. Fear will eventually lead to failure! Overcome fear, be an overcomer to success in life!!

Words trigger myself as well as memories. Every human have sins and I do have mine as well. Learning to let it go and not repeating the sinful act! I appreciate what i have in life, great family, loving partner, supportive friends and i'm a healthy person! what more could a person ask for...

My best friend+sister is getting marry this year end and i'm so happy for her. "love is in the air"...everyone is tying the knot, as for me, i do hope so in 2 yrs to come. Save enough money to start a family. seeing friends around me pregnant, or having cute babies...i know i wanted one too..i'm sure the feeling is great! for now, work hard, earn more and save more!!